Yzthine (크리스틴)

From Sugar To Ice.

          “LEAVE!!!” My younger said to me while I’m sitting here in front of the computer. Yeah, of course. It does hurt. Who wants to be yelled by her own younger sister? Who wants to be disrespected? Nobody wants.And plus, my mother nagged at me this morning while I;m having my breakfast to stop being so childish. Well, it’s just me. The usually cheerful one.

          And in the blink of an eye, I want to be as cold as an ice. Meaning, few words will start to come out from my mouth. I’ll never show my true feelings to anyone I don’t trust. I’m finding it nice~ to be cold. My mother is talking to me and I’m just answering it directly, in monotone. I’m also doing that to my younger sister. Starting today, I’ll never show my true colors to anyone unknown, to anyone doesn’t understand me, and so on.

!@#$%0424^^

               NP: Hello to Myself - YeEun (Wondergirls)

                Alone in this house and got nothing to do~ I dared myself to write an essay full of randomness for less than 15 minutes! Come what may~ xD

                Tomorrow is my 16th birthday! I am thanking God for giving me another wonderful year (and hoping for more birthday celebrations to come!) to make me discover the reason of my existence here on Earth. 

                At this time, I feel…hungry, a little bit sad, I’m missing some special people, excited….and it’s 34 degrees Celsius! Sooo hot!

                Adrenaline rush! 6 minutes more! HAHA! Hmmm… I want cake! I was 7 when I celebrated my bornday with a cake! And now~ I want to have one. T^T I want to celebrate my birthday with my FATHER! I am not yet celebrating any of my birthdays with him, as far as I remember. I miss him…. I grew up without his personal guidance. He’ll come home every 5, 4 or 2 years and he’ll be with us for only two months. No one would know how happy I am when he’s coming home……and no one would also know how broken I am to see him leaving. I can still remember that weekday morning, I’m preparing to go  to school but my mind is full of emotions. My father is going to leave us soon! Some of my tears are falling as I wear those long sleeves. Nobody is talking at home but I know how every member of the family feels that time. That feeling of someone SO special to you is leaving again?! But you can’t do nothing about it. Few more minutes and I know our school service will be there to reach me to school. And my mother called us three (Papa, Jen & I) to pose for a picture. No one smiled that time. And that was our first picture (as young adults) with my father, how ironic, isn’t it? And just like a bullet, I found myself hugging my father, saying our farewells…. and I can’t stop those tears. Although I told myself earlier to don’t cry for that moment. 

TIME’S UP! :)) Eh eto ang mga pumasok sa utak ko, eh.. (Huwaw! Meron pala ako nun, xD) 

SMILLEEEEEE!!!!!!!! :))) My younger sis told me that we’ll going to stay up together till midnight and she’s gonna sing happy birthday for me. 

12.04.12 Tuesday ★★★

“Everyday we’ll face new challenges as we learn and explore the new lessons and fun brought by our life experiences.”

Happy December to all of you my precious followers! It’s been a while, right? As usual,  tumblr will still serve as my diary and at the same time, my K-Pop haven. \(^~^/)

How’s your day?! Of course~ I wanna know, tsk! Just comment or talk to me. I’m a good listener, ya know?

Just like the old times, I started the day thanking God for giving me this another wonderful day (And you also!) and I’m hoping for something nice today. And today, I woke up at around 2:30 AM! Just to download some video just to show it to my classmates for our report in MAPEH.

———-While I am writing this, someone interrupted me and all of my thoughts are gone! Mwahahaha~ Aisssshhh… 

So~ till next time….. I think! bye for now!

By the way~ I love you!

Why Did U Say That?! I am really upset and down…

            You will never do it, you cannot. You’re lame! You’re naive! You’re STUPID. You’re NOTHING….

            See? What did you feel from just reading those words? It’s like hell. You’re doing your best everyday yet they look down. You’re just being yourself yet they criticize. That’s what exactly what I feel these past few days.

            I can’t understand myself. I am so unstable. I’m sooo confused. Am I really that low class, dumb and brainless? Do I have any good traits? I don’t know. Totally. This is not the real me. I am supposed to be cheerful, positive, faithful and determined. But look, I am really upset and down. I am losing self confidence which I rarely have.

           Why did he look down my abilities? He’s so full of himself. I want to back up now. Everything. I wish that time will pause for a while. I want to ask myself and know myself more. Why the hell he need to said that sharp things behind my back? WHY?! Okay, I am losing everything. I am even losing myself. I am writing every thought that enters y mind. I want those inside thoughts to come out. I am nearly crying, inside and out. 

           I know that, I am not that smart. I admit it, damn! I know it myself. I am just trying my best and what’s wrong with that? T_T

Sacrifice Our Weekends to Someone Special

         I was scanning the broadsheet one Tuesday night, It is actually an issue for last Sunday and the funny truth is that I’m reading it until now. Buying a Phl Star newspaper is my Sunday hobby like what I’ve said before. Sunday issues are the best for e coz they’re unique and make me feel some relaxing weekend vibes.

         A column in the Sunday section caught my attention, The column belonged to a simple 42 year old-man named Bum Tenorio, Jr. His title is the most catchy coz I accidentally read it as “MY WEEKEND BELONG TO CANADA” when it’s not really “CANADA” but “CAN-DI-DA” xD It’s funny and I read it expecting to read some adventures of the author in Canada and I become confused when he talked about dedicating his weekend to his 67 year old motherm Then I reread the title and I laughed out loud enough to bother my mother who’s curretly watching TV programs. 

         After reading the entire column I felt guilty because weekend for me is about watching TV programs/movies, reading, surfing the net, et cetera et cetera! And then realized that I must use every weekend to help my mother to do household chores and do some bonding with her every WEEKEND. ^_^ 

         I am not a perfect daughter for my wonderMOM but I can guarantee that I can show her and prove to her that I can be the best daughter in her eyes and she will not regret of having me as her daughter. 

        So what are you waiting for? SPEND YOUR WEEKEND, OH WEEKEND IS NOT ENOUGH, BUT THE REST OF YOUR LIFE by showing how you LOVE them so you will not have any REGRET when the time that GOD TAKE THEM TO HIS KINGDOM happened.